Thursday, August 28, 2008

Teshuva Thoughts

There can come a point in a man's life where he realizes he's written more checks than his soul can repay... That no amount of judgment can justify his existence.... nothing can be done that can justify his valuing of himself even existentially.... מן העץ אכלתי ואוכל (see Breishit Rabba on the pasuk) ... and so there is nothing but silence... and all that is left for him to do is sit and cry... until he dies...

...but i guess the only next step to make is the recognition that nothing in this world can truly justify it's existence.... ושמים לא זכו בעיניו .... and so his evil is everything and nothing all at the same time...

I don't know how this fits exactly with R' Elazar ben Durdaya...

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